So what

yeah, It's been awhile. I know. I assume only the random friend reads this anyway.

But, I am writing again. maybe, things have kinda settled down and I can think clearly every once in a while.

I think I've gotten too busy with life that I'm having trouble keeping up with living it, not just doing it. Sure, I'm going out nearly every night of the week. But, the weeks end up as a blur. And now it's feb. January was a speeding train. Over and done with, with little to show for it. I spend my days wandering the internet looking at stupid videos and reading politcal commentary. Why do I feel useless in monotony? Little changes from week to week, with only the promise of a coming trip, a weekend, a day off, or leaving early to excite me.

I admire those people who take off like Jack Kerouac and head for the open road. I'm reading Through Painted Deserts by Donald Miller. It tempts me. someday, I'll do it. I think I want to go to Peru first. anybody up for it?

Moved

Ok, sorry for the delay. I know my faithful readers have missed me. hahahahha

but, I'm in the new house. pictures to come soon as well as larger posts.

Birthday

Well, I survived my birthday. I went to work like usual, got my stuff done and got out of there early. But, not until I had been hosed down with silly string and received lots of food and cake. That was fun. Then I met Mom and Laura for lunch at the Olive Garden.

Numerous presents were received including valuable giftcards and cash offerings. I may now be able to afford to get internet service at the new house. or do I want a refrigerator. hmmmm

This week, this year.

This week has been one continous trial. One departments screw up, led me to miss some things that I have to fix. Luckily, as of 2:59pm everything is going to plan. It will soon be out of my hands.

I am going to be 25 on monday. I don't know what to think about that. It's another year gone by. I've done some fun things this year. But, I really don't feel like I accomplished anything. I've got the new job at the same company, that was probably the biggest life change, but certainly not one to celebrate. If i did, it be only for the patience to handle the monotony of purchasing. I feel old, yet I'm not. Well, if there is something to brag about this past year its that I finally started going to the gym and I'm in the best shape ever. A little superficial, but it makes me happy not to have to look at my fat ass anymore.

Laura comes home for fall break on sunday. I'm happy for that. When she's away, I realize that I miss her alot.

I think I've stayed out of the depression cycle fairly well this year. It was harder at first, but I finally met some awesome friends. I probably haven't told anybody about how down I was. When your soul feels dead and numb, you become a hollow shell, going through the motions. But, thats behind me. Sure, it comes in spells, but not like before.

What does my 25th year hold in store. Who knows.

BTW, i'm trying to grow a beard. don't laugh